This week was a little disappointing for me. After a huge loss last week, I gained .6 pounds. I know that it seems like nothing but that's another half a pound that I have to lose next week. It's just so frustrating. I also know that when you have a big loss, you sometimes bounce a little and gain some or stay the same the next week. We'll see. I have changed my points around. It was a little hard to get in on my points this week. I'm doing okay but I feel like I'm all over the place this week. I'm not eating good meals. It may come back to bite me in the a** but I'll figure it out.
I have found that if I keep a routine, I lose weight. When I don't, I gain. I'm going to do the best I can for the rest of the summer and then once school starts, I'll have more planning and routine opportunities.
At my WW meeting this week, we discussed the fact that this is not dieting, it is a lifestyle change. You have to change your mindset on everything. Sitting around doing nothing will not help you lose weight. Eating whatever and whenever you want, will not help you lose weight. You have to consciously change your way of thinking. That's been difficult for me. I love food. I love to taste food. I'd rather have small tastes of many things than a full serving of one thing. That makes counting points difficult. I just have to figure out points for everything.
Quote for the week: "The road to success is constantly under construction." Anon.
This quote is so true. You can't succeed in weight loss if you don't make changes. Once something works, you can continue to use it for awhile but eventually, you will stop losing. You have to change it up or your body gets complacent and comfortable.
I will have to remember this one so that when it gets hard, like it is now, I will be able to change something and make it work again.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
This weeks challenge . . .
As you know, this week's challenge was to try a new vegetable that you haven't tried before. I got two. PK picked up a butternut squash. I'm pretty sure I've never had it before. I picked up Pattypan Squash from the Farmer's Market. I have a plan to make the butternut squash tonight and the Pattypan tomorrow. I'm going to make soup. It has apples in it. If you do Weight Watchers, it is on the website in the etools. If not, I will post the recipe here if I like it so that other's can try it! Wish me luck!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Frustrations
I guess every journey has its ups and downs. I have been very frustrated lately. Mostly with myself. I keep going back and forth, up and down. Some weeks I do really great and then one week I completely blow it. I know that WW is forgiving and I can start fresh the next week but it just kills me that I've been floating so close to that 30 pound mark. I haven't reached it yet.
Last week, I gained 2.8 pounds. I took a trip with my son and my mother to my grandmother's apartment in Rockford. I didn't bring my computer with me because she doesn't have access to the internet in her apartment. Unfortunately, I didn't bring my books or my journal with me either. I could have done things the right way. It would have been a little difficult but nothing stopped me but myself and my laziness. I didn't want to have to think about it. We went to Culver's and got frozen custard. I need to remember that I really just should NOT eat that stuff. It is SOO good but SOO bad for me. Well, I not only ate it but I got a waffle bowl and Reese's Peanut Butter Cup in it too. UUUGGGH! What is wrong with me? Why can't I just control myself. I don't need all of that. The one scoop of icecream would have been enough. I always think that I need more.
I vowed after that meeting that I would do better. Our goal for this past week was to fill our plate half way with vegetables. A quarter of it could be protein and the last quarter, a starch. I have been trying to do this. It's hard. I don't know what to do with vegetables sometimes and I have to feed my husband and my son as well. I started making a lot of things out of the Deceptively Delicious cookbook. Jessica Seinfeld wrote it and puts vegetable puree in everything. That way, you get a serving of veggies without really realizing it. It's a great thing. I love that cookbook. My husband even asks for the burgers! I made brownies out of it and my husband calls them Popeye brownies. They have Spinach in them. They taste great and you can't tell that there is spinach in them. The vegetable replaces the oil so they are a little dry but I eat mine with a glass of milk anyway!
Well, Monday I had my WW meeting. The week before, the woman at the weigh station had not been able to put my weight into the computer. It just wouldn't accept it for some reason. This week, it worked but she said, "You're down .6 pounds." I was so disappointed. I thought I had done so well and sure, I forgot to put some things into the computer but I had enough activity points to cover it. I went into the meeting a little depressed and very frustrated with myself. I didn't know what else to do.
There is a man in my group that just started 3 weeks ago. He's lost 5 pounds each week. He's almost caught up to me and I have been doing this for almost a year. AAAAaaaaaahhh! Ok, I got it out and now I will be ok. I'm very happy for him and I hope that he continues to be successful. I just want some of that success for myself.
I got home from my meeting and went to my computer to finish putting in my points and to track my weight. I put in my new weight and it said that I had lost 3.4 pounds since last week. OKAY WTH? Then I realized that because the computer wouldn't accept my weight the week before, it had counted it from 2 weeks back. I had actually lost what I had gained and then some! YAY! My depression lifted and I was remotivated. I went in and retook the quiz for my points value and answered some of the questions a little differently. It knocked my points down a bit but I think it will really help me kick start my weight loss again. We shall see!
CHALLENGE
The challenge from my meeting is to eat a vegetable that I've never had before. I don't think I've ever had butternut squash. That is what I was given.
Quote: "Live each season as it passes: breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit"
-Henry David Thoreau
Last week, I gained 2.8 pounds. I took a trip with my son and my mother to my grandmother's apartment in Rockford. I didn't bring my computer with me because she doesn't have access to the internet in her apartment. Unfortunately, I didn't bring my books or my journal with me either. I could have done things the right way. It would have been a little difficult but nothing stopped me but myself and my laziness. I didn't want to have to think about it. We went to Culver's and got frozen custard. I need to remember that I really just should NOT eat that stuff. It is SOO good but SOO bad for me. Well, I not only ate it but I got a waffle bowl and Reese's Peanut Butter Cup in it too. UUUGGGH! What is wrong with me? Why can't I just control myself. I don't need all of that. The one scoop of icecream would have been enough. I always think that I need more.
I vowed after that meeting that I would do better. Our goal for this past week was to fill our plate half way with vegetables. A quarter of it could be protein and the last quarter, a starch. I have been trying to do this. It's hard. I don't know what to do with vegetables sometimes and I have to feed my husband and my son as well. I started making a lot of things out of the Deceptively Delicious cookbook. Jessica Seinfeld wrote it and puts vegetable puree in everything. That way, you get a serving of veggies without really realizing it. It's a great thing. I love that cookbook. My husband even asks for the burgers! I made brownies out of it and my husband calls them Popeye brownies. They have Spinach in them. They taste great and you can't tell that there is spinach in them. The vegetable replaces the oil so they are a little dry but I eat mine with a glass of milk anyway!
Well, Monday I had my WW meeting. The week before, the woman at the weigh station had not been able to put my weight into the computer. It just wouldn't accept it for some reason. This week, it worked but she said, "You're down .6 pounds." I was so disappointed. I thought I had done so well and sure, I forgot to put some things into the computer but I had enough activity points to cover it. I went into the meeting a little depressed and very frustrated with myself. I didn't know what else to do.
There is a man in my group that just started 3 weeks ago. He's lost 5 pounds each week. He's almost caught up to me and I have been doing this for almost a year. AAAAaaaaaahhh! Ok, I got it out and now I will be ok. I'm very happy for him and I hope that he continues to be successful. I just want some of that success for myself.
I got home from my meeting and went to my computer to finish putting in my points and to track my weight. I put in my new weight and it said that I had lost 3.4 pounds since last week. OKAY WTH? Then I realized that because the computer wouldn't accept my weight the week before, it had counted it from 2 weeks back. I had actually lost what I had gained and then some! YAY! My depression lifted and I was remotivated. I went in and retook the quiz for my points value and answered some of the questions a little differently. It knocked my points down a bit but I think it will really help me kick start my weight loss again. We shall see!
CHALLENGE
The challenge from my meeting is to eat a vegetable that I've never had before. I don't think I've ever had butternut squash. That is what I was given.
Quote: "Live each season as it passes: breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit"
-Henry David Thoreau
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Rough Week
This week was rough. I did okay in the beginning of the week. I tracked everything that I ate. Then PK's Grandma got sick and I missed my Thursday Zumba class. This is not normally a big deal but lately I have been having a hard time if I miss those workouts. So, I blew it over the weekend. I didn't track. We went to an engagement party and then went out for lunch on Father's Day and to my parents for dinner that night. I ate 2 cupcakes this weekend. I broke my no cake except for chocolate rule twice. I'm going to do better this week and I'm going to try and keep my activity points instead of eating them. Maybe I'll lose a little more than 2 pounds this week. I need another jumpstart/motivational week. Last week was great. I lost 2.4 pounds just by making sure I tracked everything I ate.
Tracking on the computer is nice because it keeps me honest. I can look up points values. There's no guessing and it's kind of fun to enter it in and keep track that way. It also makes me think a little more when I go in the kitchen looking for food. When I know that I will have to put my food into the computer, I tend to ask myself if I am really hungry or if something else is going on.
I have been really tired lately. I cut back on coffee a little bit the last couple of days because it was upsetting my stomach. Unfortunately, when I'm tired, I think I'm hungry. I associate everything that I feel with hunger. I'm not sure why. I noticed yesterday that when I was being lazy and reading, all I wanted was something to snack on constantly. Not because I was really hungry but because it felt good to put something in my mouth. I was comfort eating. That is something I have a really hard time with. I find that chewing gum sometimes helps with that feeling but I have to be aware of it before I can realize that I need to put a piece of gum in my mouth.
I gained 1.2 pounds this week. It is very frustrating. I am frustrated with myself because I convinced myself that it would be okay if I didn't track this weekend. I would still do well because I can make good choices. HA. That's what I have to say about my ability to make good choice. I don't hold myself accountable. I need the constant checking up on myself that I get with tracking. Yesterday, before my meeting, I told myself that I would be okay if I didn't track right away because my weekly points started over. I have got to stop doing that too. It is a relief that my points start over but I get in trouble when I use up my weekly allowance in the beginning of the week.
My goal this week is to track every bite that I put in my mouth. I am going to try to plan better this week too but tracking is part of that. If I look up recipes online for dinner and everything then life is good and easy. It's when I don't have that resource that I have trouble. Well, wish me luck! See you next week.
Tracking on the computer is nice because it keeps me honest. I can look up points values. There's no guessing and it's kind of fun to enter it in and keep track that way. It also makes me think a little more when I go in the kitchen looking for food. When I know that I will have to put my food into the computer, I tend to ask myself if I am really hungry or if something else is going on.
I have been really tired lately. I cut back on coffee a little bit the last couple of days because it was upsetting my stomach. Unfortunately, when I'm tired, I think I'm hungry. I associate everything that I feel with hunger. I'm not sure why. I noticed yesterday that when I was being lazy and reading, all I wanted was something to snack on constantly. Not because I was really hungry but because it felt good to put something in my mouth. I was comfort eating. That is something I have a really hard time with. I find that chewing gum sometimes helps with that feeling but I have to be aware of it before I can realize that I need to put a piece of gum in my mouth.
I gained 1.2 pounds this week. It is very frustrating. I am frustrated with myself because I convinced myself that it would be okay if I didn't track this weekend. I would still do well because I can make good choices. HA. That's what I have to say about my ability to make good choice. I don't hold myself accountable. I need the constant checking up on myself that I get with tracking. Yesterday, before my meeting, I told myself that I would be okay if I didn't track right away because my weekly points started over. I have got to stop doing that too. It is a relief that my points start over but I get in trouble when I use up my weekly allowance in the beginning of the week.
My goal this week is to track every bite that I put in my mouth. I am going to try to plan better this week too but tracking is part of that. If I look up recipes online for dinner and everything then life is good and easy. It's when I don't have that resource that I have trouble. Well, wish me luck! See you next week.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
27 Pounds and shrinking
This is from June 16, 2009. My son is 13 1/2 months old in this picture. I've lost as much weight as he weighs now. It's kind of cool to think of it that way. I've still got a long way to go but I have about a year and a few months to do it in.
I finally started using the Weight Watcher's website/etools. It's nice because you don't have to use the same computer every time you enter in your food points. I can enter breakfast at home and then enter anything I eat at work on the computer there. The first week I used it I lost 2.4 pounds. This broke a plateau that I was on for about a month and a half. I feel much better physically but I'm not all the way there emotionally yet. I have a problem with stress eating/emotional eating. The unfortunate part of that is that I eat when I'm sad and stressed out but I also eat when I am happy or celebrating. It's something that I definitely need to watch or I will gain the weight I lost back faster than I lost it.
I'm going one day at a time, one meal at a time.
The starting point . . .
After having my son, I was heavier than I have ever been in my life. I have struggled with my weight since I graduated high school. Before I got married, I got down to about a size 14. I lost more afterward and was about a size 12. I was slowly creeping back up when I got pregnant. I did really well at the beginning of my pregnancy. I didn't lose weight but I wasn't gaining. Since I was already overweight, the doctors didn't want me to gain more than 15-20 pounds for the whole pregnancy. That did not happen. Instead, I gained about 10 pounds over the holidays and ended up gaining about 55 pounds overall. After my son was born, it took me awhile to get started. I rejoined Weight Watchers when he was 5 months old. I weighed 216 pounds. I had never been over 190 before so it was very depressing for me to be over 200 pounds. It took until he was about 10 or 11 months to lose 27 pounds. I didn't mind that it was taking awhile. I have time to do it right and I want to be healthy for my son. I am now at 188.8 pounds.
My son is 13 months old. My husband and I have started discussing when we want to have another child. My goal is to be at 15o pounds before I get pregnant again. If I lose more than that, it would be good but I think 15o is realistic. I need to lose almost 40 more pounds.
I don't have a picture of me at this point but I am going to take one this week and I'll post it later.
I decided to start this blog because I felt like I needed to keep some kind of journal about my weight loss. I'm not good at writing in a journal but I blog pretty regularly now so I figured this would be a good way to do it. If anyone stumbles onto it and gets inspired or it helps them in any way then I guess it would be a worthwhile thing for more than just me!
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