Rough Week

This week was rough. I did okay in the beginning of the week. I tracked everything that I ate. Then PK's Grandma got sick and I missed my Thursday Zumba class. This is not normally a big deal but lately I have been having a hard time if I miss those workouts. So, I blew it over the weekend. I didn't track. We went to an engagement party and then went out for lunch on Father's Day and to my parents for dinner that night. I ate 2 cupcakes this weekend. I broke my no cake except for chocolate rule twice. I'm going to do better this week and I'm going to try and keep my activity points instead of eating them. Maybe I'll lose a little more than 2 pounds this week. I need another jumpstart/motivational week. Last week was great. I lost 2.4 pounds just by making sure I tracked everything I ate.

Tracking on the computer is nice because it keeps me honest. I can look up points values. There's no guessing and it's kind of fun to enter it in and keep track that way. It also makes me think a little more when I go in the kitchen looking for food. When I know that I will have to put my food into the computer, I tend to ask myself if I am really hungry or if something else is going on.

I have been really tired lately. I cut back on coffee a little bit the last couple of days because it was upsetting my stomach. Unfortunately, when I'm tired, I think I'm hungry. I associate everything that I feel with hunger. I'm not sure why. I noticed yesterday that when I was being lazy and reading, all I wanted was something to snack on constantly. Not because I was really hungry but because it felt good to put something in my mouth. I was comfort eating. That is something I have a really hard time with. I find that chewing gum sometimes helps with that feeling but I have to be aware of it before I can realize that I need to put a piece of gum in my mouth.

I gained 1.2 pounds this week. It is very frustrating. I am frustrated with myself because I convinced myself that it would be okay if I didn't track this weekend. I would still do well because I can make good choices. HA. That's what I have to say about my ability to make good choice. I don't hold myself accountable. I need the constant checking up on myself that I get with tracking. Yesterday, before my meeting, I told myself that I would be okay if I didn't track right away because my weekly points started over. I have got to stop doing that too. It is a relief that my points start over but I get in trouble when I use up my weekly allowance in the beginning of the week.

My goal this week is to track every bite that I put in my mouth. I am going to try to plan better this week too but tracking is part of that. If I look up recipes online for dinner and everything then life is good and easy. It's when I don't have that resource that I have trouble. Well, wish me luck! See you next week.

27 Pounds and shrinking

This is from June 16, 2009. My son is 13 1/2 months old in this picture. I've lost as much weight as he weighs now. It's kind of cool to think of it that way. I've still got a long way to go but I have about a year and a few months to do it in.

I finally started using the Weight Watcher's website/etools. It's nice because you don't have to use the same computer every time you enter in your food points. I can enter breakfast at home and then enter anything I eat at work on the computer there. The first week I used it I lost 2.4 pounds. This broke a plateau that I was on for about a month and a half. I feel much better physically but I'm not all the way there emotionally yet. I have a problem with stress eating/emotional eating. The unfortunate part of that is that I eat when I'm sad and stressed out but I also eat when I am happy or celebrating. It's something that I definitely need to watch or I will gain the weight I lost back faster than I lost it.

I'm going one day at a time, one meal at a time.

The starting point . . .

After having my son, I was heavier than I have ever been in my life. I have struggled with my weight since I graduated high school. Before I got married, I got down to about a size 14. I lost more afterward and was about a size 12. I was slowly creeping back up when I got pregnant. I did really well at the beginning of my pregnancy. I didn't lose weight but I wasn't gaining. Since I was already overweight, the doctors didn't want me to gain more than 15-20 pounds for the whole pregnancy. That did not happen. Instead, I gained about 10 pounds over the holidays and ended up gaining about 55 pounds overall. After my son was born, it took me awhile to get started. I rejoined Weight Watchers when he was 5 months old. I weighed 216 pounds. I had never been over 190 before so it was very depressing for me to be over 200 pounds. It took until he was about 10 or 11 months to lose 27 pounds. I didn't mind that it was taking awhile. I have time to do it right and I want to be healthy for my son. I am now at 188.8 pounds.

My son is 13 months old. My husband and I have started discussing when we want to have another child. My goal is to be at 15o pounds before I get pregnant again. If I lose more than that, it would be good but I think 15o is realistic. I need to lose almost 40 more pounds.
I don't have a picture of me at this point but I am going to take one this week and I'll post it later.

I decided to start this blog because I felt like I needed to keep some kind of journal about my weight loss. I'm not good at writing in a journal but I blog pretty regularly now so I figured this would be a good way to do it. If anyone stumbles onto it and gets inspired or it helps them in any way then I guess it would be a worthwhile thing for more than just me!